SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: I'm Not Where I Used To Be

I have a lot to think about. Especially where I am in life. I'm not where I WANT to be...but at the end of the day, I am so glad I am not where I was. Actuallu I thank God I am not where I used to be.

Obviously March isn't my heaviest, but it represents PROGRESS! I may take baby steps but at least I am moving forward.  I am so scared for whats to come but so excited. I wish I knew exactly what will happen. Sometimes I just wait for the day my life falls into place. I wait for that moment my relationship status changes, my bank account has money in it to buy the things I need and to help out my family more.

I know that day will come. But I look back at my life and know in the past, those bad things happened to help me progress. I have a few family members who I look at and think, "I NEVER wanna be in their position." NEVER! I know it sounds mean but I am so thankful to have been dragged through hell a few years back to know what I will tolerate and what I wont and to grow into a woman I am proud of.

I understand that losing my baby, having to make decisions and walking away from the ex all lead me to a life I love. I am in the moment and I am forever grateful for my progress.

I'm not where I used to be.

I am grateful for that. 

So grateful.

Goodbye November, December, lets make the last month of this year really special!

(Fingers crossed)