A few months ago I shared a readers comment on how she stopped reading my blog because I "whined." Her judgements of me were so negative and I expressed how sad she must have been to say such hurtful things to me.
I forgave her.
But I thought about her today. As I took my mom out for dinner I wanted to tell that girl "Thank you." For saying those hurtful things to me. It fueled my fire and made me believable in God more.
I wake up every day and I thank God. No lie. I go to bed and ask for forgiveness and thank him. I thank him every single day for what he has put me through and what he has given me. Putting that anonymous woman in my path showed me how I will always be criticized.
How things could be more terrible...I could be HER!
Then it made me think of all the people I never thought I would lose, who betrayed me...
See, I am not saying I am perfect. But I am not them. I could never turn my back on people when they are no longer beneficial to me. I could never put another woman down just to make myself feel better.
And I will NEVER be that woman. Some day when I have a little girl I will instill that value in her as my mom did me.
To never compete with women but rather build other women up.
I still back and I am so, so, thankful for the blessings and struggles God has given me.
It makes me who I am.
I pray for those who felt the need top be mean to me, cruel to me and leave me in my time of need.
I could be them.