SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: God Is Teaching Me Patience

 

I have fallen off the counting points wagon this past two weeks. I start out amazing and then I have a cheat day and I am screwed.

Moving has got me all twisted. 

So did other conflicts in my love life.

I have never had SLOW. 

In fact Ryan and I were like two cosmic stars that collide and full force and exploded. I know I cant compare that feeling to others, but that's what I THOUGHT love was. It was like my heart wanted to beat out of my chest, like it wanted to scream, like it wanted to explode and eventually it did. Maybe we were two cosmic stars that souls aligned and the force of our collision was meant to teach me that SLOW IS BETTER 

I just think I am so impatient and I am used to wham-bam-thank you mame.

I really do need slow if you think about it. I am trying to find a good good now that God gave us a home, trying to make money and I need THAT first before a boyfriend. 

Maybe slow is what I need right now.

Maybe its what God is trying to teach me.

Like be patient with this tracking thingy this week. Go in and weigh in Monday and start a new. It's not like I gained 100 pounds back!

I got this!

I just need to remember I can get a fresh start ANY DAY!

I need to remember SLOW IS BETTER!

I'LL BE BACK STAURDAY!!!!

 

I have so many giveaways for you guys! And much needed reviews! Sorry for the hold up this week! I was sett;ling in! Almost down with my room! Next up the rest of the house! Moving is exhausting and I barely got my internet up! Yay! Stay tuned for some goodies!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

 

There are no words I can say that can ever express how much I love my mom. We have had ups and downs, I have made her mad and shes made me mad...but the key is FORGIVENESS!

Thank you for all that you do for me mom! I love you with all my heart!

 

SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: Maybe that's my problem

 

I'm tired of owning one pair of jeans.

I'm tired of being broke.

I'm tired of not having another job that can pay for my wants. 

My wanting of new jeans.

My wanting of having a full-tank of gas.

My wanting of new shoes.

My wanting to want to be able to give more.

Its frustrating and I feel helpless.

And my love life is at a stand still..I don't even know abut that anymore. And honestly, I can care less. What will be, will be. However, I still want my own family. I want stability. I want a good man. Maybe it's time accept the fact that I may never have kids. I may never have a husband. I may never have stability.

Maybe I am meant to be one of those women on her own. Maybe I am one of those women who are meant to live with her mother her whole life.

And drive a shitty car.

Have a shitty job

And have a boring life struggling....

I'm confused. I'm okay with being single, that's my problem. I have been single for SO long, I think I forgot HOW TO allow someone back in.

Maybe that's my problem...

Moving thoughts part 2: Packing

 

Packing is NOT THE BIZ!!! I just wish I was filthy rich and I could have someone pack for me.  :(

VLOG: A rant about this, that & this

               

WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEKLY WEIGH-IN: 1.4 POUNDS LOST

 

A new week and I feel GOOD! Why? Because I lost 1.4 pounds this week! I know some get discouraged with just a pound, but its not JUST a pound! A pound is a huge chunk of fat and one pound closer to your goal! A pound is EVERYTHING, because there are some who aren't even losing weight! Shall we get into the details? I say we shall!

HIGH OF THE WEEK

My high of the week came Friday night when my best friend and I went to see Iron Man 3. Being the food and candy are overpriced at the movie theater, we went to CVS and bought cheaper candy. I calculated all the candy I bought before purchasing it! I was busting out my app, totaling and if it was too high, I put it back. I got licorice and a S'more! I also got Diet Dr. Pepper. I thought I splurge a little! 

LOW OF THE WEEK

My choices were good for the most part. I ate like a pig on my cheat meal Saturday night, but I didn't feel guilty. So really, no low.

 

WHAT I LEARNED

I learned to stay on track! I learned I can have fun and not feel left out. I learned to be a RESPONSIBLE Weight Watcher Member and a clever one at that!

 

TIP OF THE WEEK

 

 

So as I said, I got a S'More at the movies. I am sure I could have made one at home for LESS points, but this was just DELICIOUS!!!

6 pp (230 calories)

SO GOOD!!!!

QUOTE OF THE WEEK