I crave stability.
I feel like I never really had it. I guess that is why I long for it when I have my own family.
I don't want them growing up feeling unstable, having people walk out on them, abused, or emotionally corrupted like I have.
I don' want a perfect husband, but one who wouldn't dare shatter my heart or our family. The kind of husband who I fight with and instead of leaving the house, he goes sits his ass in another room until we can TALK it out.
Yeah, there will be NO yelling in my house unless there is a fire.
Yelling scares me. Stems from my childhood.
Will I get that? Or will I always be a loser (that's how I feel) constantly moving.
A place to call home.
A place to say, "This is it...this is where I am planting my seeds to watch it grow."
I'll be honest, I feel like I am being punished.
For what? No clue.
I feel like I am stuck. I can move. Im not a tree.
So I make moves.
I've applied to jobs.
Some people seem to think the job market is so amazing right now.
Have they not seen who our president is?
How badly the job market is and I am in a race with millions of people here in L.A just to snag a job.
When do things get better for us.
When can we finally exhale and smile?
I crave stability.
Labels: SATURDAY'S WITH STEF
My beautiful friend Tara sent me this amazing Necklace from Spiffing Jewelry.
If you know me, I am constantly saying, "Thug never looked so beautiful."
It's my signature line when it comes to my selfies.
How beautiful is this necklace? How ME is it? Totally me right?!
Thank you Tara! I love it to death!
You can check out Spiffing Jewelry HERE or http://www.spiffingjewelry.com to get your very own custom-made jewelry! They have thee cutest things EVER!
How exciting is this! Obviously My weigh-in posts are gonna come once a month and I will fill Wednesday's with Weight Watchers related topics, so never fear!
It was weird weighing in and knowing I don't have to weigh-in all the time now.
I stayed the same! Which is awesome sauce! YAY! I did have TWO cheat days, in which I totally ate junk galore!
But I'm happy with it.
I decided to not weigh-in until May obviously.
I will probably do my weigh-ins in the beginning of the month!
However, here is a before and after!
Here's a little inspiration for ya!
I got Red Rose REAL TEA Premium Water Enhancer and I will admit I was really apprehensive to try it. I'm not a fan of water enhancers to begin with.
But like many, I was curious to see if it really tasted like tea!
Truthfully, it did!
Tasted pretty good. Just like tea!
You can get Red Rose REAL TEA Premium Water Enhancer for $4.49 , at any store!