I have fallen off the counting points wagon this past two weeks. I start out amazing and then I have a cheat day and I am screwed.
Moving has got me all twisted.
So did other conflicts in my love life.
I have never had SLOW.
In fact Ryan and I were like two cosmic stars that collide and full force and exploded. I know I cant compare that feeling to others, but that's what I THOUGHT love was. It was like my heart wanted to beat out of my chest, like it wanted to scream, like it wanted to explode and eventually it did. Maybe we were two cosmic stars that souls aligned and the force of our collision was meant to teach me that SLOW IS BETTER
I just think I am so impatient and I am used to wham-bam-thank you mame.
I really do need slow if you think about it. I am trying to find a good good now that God gave us a home, trying to make money and I need THAT first before a boyfriend.
Maybe slow is what I need right now.
Maybe its what God is trying to teach me.
Like be patient with this tracking thingy this week. Go in and weigh in Monday and start a new. It's not like I gained 100 pounds back!
I got this!
I just need to remember I can get a fresh start ANY DAY!
I need to remember SLOW IS BETTER!


