WEIGHT WATCHERS WEIGH IN: I gained 10 pounds

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I wish I could say "I dont know who that happened" but I do. I am not one to sugar coat things. I am dealing with no real job and have been having severe anxiety and been going thru depression. This was a weigh in I didn't cry at all. I am so done over crying and I know I had turned to food to comfort me. I binge ate. I am determined to get back to 145. I have done it before and will do it again. This is life. Life happens. 

I have learned I need to be kind to myself. 

I thank everyone who has been with me thruough this tough time. 

Who support me.

Time for me to get back on track phsically, mentally, emotionally and spitually,

BE KIND TO YOURSELF KIDDOS!

Sunday Funday Recap!

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Went to church, an estate sale, went to DTLA to get some nail supplies and then to get margaritas! Hahahaha. Sunday was good to me! Thanks mom for the great Sunday, my soul needed it! 

SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: Will I....?

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I laid in bed and had a vision. I came home from work on Friday afternoon. Struggled with my keys, while trying to juggle my things and suddenly my daughter opened the door. "Moms home!" Kissed my kids and my husband got up off the couch and kissed me so sweetly. He smelled as if he just had a long day at work himself. I tell him to order pizza, because Friday's mean pizza night in our household.

We sat around the table, talking, laughing.

After dinner I cleaned up and joined my family watching a TV with popcorn.
I laid my myself across my husband, as he brushed the sides of my hair, held me tight and every now and then sneaking a kiss. My kids would look back and without saying anything, know we are in love.

Once the movie was over, we bathed them and got them into bed. 

It was US time.

I woke up.

Will that ever be my life? Or is this some imaginary scenery that will never come true. 

I just want happiness. I want someone who chooses me all the time, every day, any time. REGARDLESS.

I woke up feeling so sad yet hopeful.

We would have a relationship that's filled with more laughs than tears because God knows I have cried enough. 

People will envy our friendship and say, "She married her soul-mate, HOW LUCKY ARE THEY!"

Someday right?

I will right?

Will I?

On The Rise: Sik Streetwear!

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I always have a space in my heart for those who have been good to me. My homie Sergio over at SIK Streetwear has been!

I always see him promotiing and hustling. A passion is alwasy an amazing thing to see! 

I know many of you support you local clothing designers, so if you have the extra funds, can you guys support Sik Streetwear! Sucha  positive company!

Check out thier clothing HERE! (http://sikstreetwear.bigcartel.com/)