SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: Daddy Dearest.....

9:56 PM

I sat here today and thought about what to write. I am beyond sickened by my dad. I looked at all the bills he put in my name and felt like vomiting. BILLS. Plural. Who does this to their child. What monster does this to their child? 

I sit here and wonder how a human can live like this. I need a new car. My credit is shot. BECAUSE OF HIM and I need a new car badly. 

As if his physical abuse wasn't enough. He does this. What a disgusting man.

He beat me as a kid and I forgave. I used to love my dad. Not a whole lot. But I loved him. Now I am not even sure I do. I don't think I do because as bad as this may sound: If he were to pass, I don't think I would cry horribly like I did with my grandparents who raised me. 

Call me a bitch. Whatever you want. But when you have a parent ROB you , you tend to get beyond angry. I have to find a way out of this mess he made. Because like always, daddy dearest never takes blame for any of the damage he causes. 

I hope and pray when I have kids, their father loves them and would never do this to them. I know God will never allow this pattern to happen nor will I because I will never let my kids suffer like I have.

1 comment:

864 said...

I have said this before and I am not sure if you have taken action, but you need to report your father. The fact that you are struggling and making strides to get out of some life struggles is great. But it won't matter if your father continues to do this. Do you think this will stop once you have a good job, get married, and have children?