I had this whole motivational blog post ready to post, but last minute, I had a shaken soul and just needed to vent.
Ive been crying for the last two days. Maybe its because I am PMS'ing . I feel HORRIBLY depressed when mother nature comes around and I start thinking and panicking.
Our house situation isn't getting any better. I mean I am so confused why we are even in THIS situation. I have always thrived on stability. I just LOVE stability and nothing is stable in my life right now. Money is an issue, my living situation is an issue and I feel so overwhelmed. So it gets me thinking, what man is gonna want me. I'm so terrified right now and I am trying so hard to suck it up, hold back my tears and smile. And it's just been the past two days I have felt this way.
I feel like I have taken care of people emotionally and I have no one. Just a hug. Just someone who can assure me this is all part of a plan. Some amazing plan. Some AWESOME plan. Something magical that I don't know.
I need another job. I need a positive change.
My soul and heart hurt right now and I'm overwhelmed.
There I vented.