This week, I was sitting there thinking about a certain man who constantly comes back around in my life when it's CONVENIENT for HIM. With the issue of my dad being brought up this week, I had to step back and analyze, "Do I really wanna be his friend? Am I just good for sex? Is that all men see when they look at me?"
I'm not oblivious to the fact that I do have sex appeal. I'm not gonna sit here and lie to you and tell you when I am out , shamelessly flirting, I don't use it to my advantage.
I do! Harmless fun and Girls just wanna have fun!
But as he stood there, with his arms around me, telling me we should just be friends, I thought, "You're disgusting!"
In fact ALL the men I have EVER in my life dated have been low-grade.
Clearly I am shitty at picking out men. Then again, look who 1/2 made me.
Anyways back to what I was saying.
I pick shitty men.
Yes I just OPENLY admitted this.
Even when I think they are "Good" men, they still turn out to be shitty.
Maybe it's society? Maybe society NOW, teaches them that "Easy is better" and since I am not easy, I get shit on.
I enjoy being single, don't get me wrong. I know Gods choice for me will eventually come to light and I am not gonna be wrapped up in men's bed to find him. I will wait patiently and NOT SETTLE!
Trail and error I guess?