12:00 AM

I laid in bed and had a vision. I came home from work on Friday afternoon. Struggled with my keys, while trying to juggle my things and suddenly my daughter opened the door. "Moms home!" Kissed my kids and my husband got up off the couch and kissed me so sweetly. He smelled as if he just had a long day at work himself. I tell him to order pizza, because Friday's mean pizza night in our household.

We sat around the table, talking, laughing.

After dinner I cleaned up and joined my family watching a TV with popcorn.
I laid my myself across my husband, as he brushed the sides of my hair, held me tight and every now and then sneaking a kiss. My kids would look back and without saying anything, know we are in love.

Once the movie was over, we bathed them and got them into bed. 

It was US time.

I woke up.

Will that ever be my life? Or is this some imaginary scenery that will never come true. 

I just want happiness. I want someone who chooses me all the time, every day, any time. REGARDLESS.

I woke up feeling so sad yet hopeful.

We would have a relationship that's filled with more laughs than tears because God knows I have cried enough. 

People will envy our friendship and say, "She married her soul-mate, HOW LUCKY ARE THEY!"

Someday right?

I will right?

Will I?


Big Mark 243 said...

... remain hopeful... you are young, beautiful and it is still down the line for you...

Unknown said...

Girl I feel ya. Don't give up being hopeful. You are an amazing catch and someone WILL appreciate you for everything you have to offer. Just think, it's better to wait than to be in a loveless relationship. You will find your happily ever after.

Anonymous said...

I TOTALLY used to visualize scenarios like that too. I even made a vision board that has those things on it, including the popcorn! (Have you heard of The Secret? - I imagine you might have, but if not, you can check it out online or on YT for free)

I found my true love at 40; BEFORE I lost the weight. It is never too late, honey! You have a strong faith like I did, and God WILL provide for you, just NEVER lose your faith.

I know that you don't want to wait that long, and I am certainly not at all saying that you will. I pray that your dreams come true TODAY! But in the meantime, what I did was follow a journey of self-love and self-discovery like you are and it paid off in the end by making me a great partner for an equally great guy.

I remember that when I was around your age this woman told a story about how she just met the love of her life at like age 30-40, with the same message I am telling you about not giving up and NEVER SETTLING FOR LESS. I always remembered that and it helped me over time. I hope this message can do the same for you.

BTW, I found you on YT b/c I am on a WW journey. Thanks for your helpful posts! I am Fit2LuvME over there, in case you want to know. Blessings!!