$348 Left to last me three months. Thank God I have my family who feeds me and provides me with shelter. That I have to give an AMEN! too! I know many don't have that.
That number in bank account bothers me. I have been applying everywhere. Sometimes I sit back and think, "It's not what you know, but who you know." But I can't complain anymore. There are people who have it worse off than me.
I know if I keep doing my part, God will do his. He has NEVER let me go without. I know someday when I have kids, they will keep faith like me during this time.
I just want a job I love. A job that loves me. A job that doesn't feel like a job. I want life to finally fall into place for me. I want to be able to breathe and say, "AHHHH" I don't want to have to try to stretch out $348 bucks over a span of 3 months just so I can pay for my needs (Kotex, deodorant, etc.)
I have faith. I think I had lost it the last few months. I felt so betrayed by the world. I couldn't even be happy I was alive and healthy. I was just so stuck on "why me?"
I guess I just got sick and tired of crying every day. Or as I like to believe God took away my pain and said, "Trust me. Something great is coming."
I have faith.
Oh yes I do!