My Wrinkly Breasts

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I want to start off by saying, I have been going back and forth about blogging on this subject. It's a subject weight loss related, yet no one ever really speaks of. I also want to add, that if you are gonna screenshot this to make fun me, go ahead. I have nothing to hide and by you talking about it or me negatively, only speaks volumes about who you are as a human. So why am I writing this? To let other women know they are not alone. 

This is my breast. This is my reality. This is something I struggle with daily. I have ever since I lost weight. Even before I had my son. See, I lost 119 lbs prior to having my son. Dude, 119! That alone is amazing yet it took a toll on my body. Loose skin affected not only my stomach and inner thighs, but my breasts. Then I got pregnant. Gained weight and because of that the loose skin on my breasts disappeared. 

I then had my son. Now I am 58 pounds smaller, which is back to my pre-baby weight and then some. All that, took a huge toll on my body and skin.

Prior to Daniel, having sex with men, was EMBARRASSING. I left my top on and I would mush my boobs into a push up bra in hopes they wouldn't see my breasts. It wasn't until Daniel, I got fully naked. I felt vulnerable and he didn't care. Until this day, he still doesn't care and caresses my dough-like breasts like they are the most amazing breasts in the world.

Now how do I feel about my breasts even though Daniel loves them? BAD. I want implants, but unfortunately I can't afford them. So I spend hours combing the racks at Ross and Marshall's for a push-up bra that wont show my loose skin. I am beyond scared to even step into a Victoria's Secret. When it comes to sports bras, I can only wear one. It's pricey and unfortunately I have wore mine out so I will have to wait to get another. It's SheFit. It locks my breasts in place so they don't move. So the loose skin doesn't pull. Have you ever felt the pain of loose skin pulling? Horrible! Needless to say, bra shopping is a nightmare.

 Truth be told, I even laugh hysterically when I am in the shower washing myself and I bend over. They look like cow utters (hand over face). I snapchat my close friends my loose skin breasts problems and sometimes even get an exchange pic because this is our reality. We lost weight, had babies and lost weight again. 

Why does no one ever speak about this? Oh! I know. Because there will always be some negative Nancy shaming a woman's body.

I have no real words of encouragement for those of you who deal with this. I just hope you know, you're not alone.

Here's to some day getting breast implants! *holds up my glass of wine*

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