Saturday's with Stef: A first date......

12:27 AM


Dating. Such a foreign word and concept to me.
In fact, I have never been asked out FORMALLY...Up until this week.

Thursday night I went on my FIRST official date. I am not going into details, for I don't kiss and tell. But I will tell you, I came home smiling.

I think about how far I have come. I remember last year, I was crying and crying over the ex. Today, I am free from the chains of that relationship and his addiction. POINT IS: I AM FREE.

I actually was VERY nervous. So many questions went through my head.

"What if he doesn't like me?"

"What if conversations runs out?"

Lots of "What if's....."' in my head.

I don't know if there will be a second date. However in my personal opinion, not to toot my own horn, but he'd be one lucky guy if you ask me!

Okay I tooted it...TOOT! TOOT!

It felt so good to laugh, smile and have a conversation.

It felt so good to finally say "YES" to a guy who a is talented, smart, and not to mention CUTE.

Anyways, I came home and thought of what life will be like a year from now.

It made me excited.

Scared.

EXCITED!

I know I so badly want a family, but honestly, I look at girls who pop out kids left and right and have babies with men they even haven't dated a year, and I am thankful I am waiting until I find that one guy who I am definitely sure that I am sure about. Does that make sense? I get it, men can change...but I like to think God has someone REALLY special for me. Someone who will want me until death-do-us part. The one man who makes all the other men look like scum that gross at the bottom of the sea.

Do I make sense at all?

Anyways...Point is. I went on a date. I put myself out there. I opened up. I took a risk....

I am glad I did.

It made me feel fearless.

It made me thankful that all those times I have given up on myself, I didn't.

I think I may say "Yes" more....

*Crosses fingers for a second date*

Until then...

I vow to live my life with open arms, an open mind, an open heat, open options, and an open soul...


8 comments:

Marta said...

Well, you went out on a date and that's a start! He'll probably is thinking of taking you on a second date, why not?

Desiree @ Mano y Metal said...

whoohoo! Glad you are venturing out there again!
Cheers to your this date and many more!

Happy Saturday!

xoxo.
Des.

Nikol said...

It's a great feeling when you finally meet that someone. I can not imagine my life without my husband. Take risks, love, feel, jump in and breathe!! You looked beautiful I am sure and just remember... we kiss alot of frogs before one turns into a prince.

SoCal Sweetheart said...

Both OF YOU ARE WAY CUTE! and Im glad I got to be there on the side!!!! looking in from a distance... I am truly happy for you <3 and I KNOOOOWWWWWWWW there is a second date happening!! or did it! hehehehehe ;) Love you so much

I wanna be fierce said...

Well all right now missy. Cheers to your date night. Haven't been on one in a while myself. Heres to a second date. Keep us posted.

-Shakiyla

FROM THE "REZ" TO THE "CITY" said...

So happy for you Stef! You go girl! I know it is scary but you have to tear down those walls and let someone in or else you will never be happy! Kiah

Ashley said...

Yay! Glad you went home smiling!

Beauty on a College budget said...

Love that first date feeling! Good luck with this new man! I'm keeping my fingers cross for you.