SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: I'm Not Where I Used To Be

12:00 AM

I have a lot to think about. Especially where I am in life. I'm not where I WANT to be...but at the end of the day, I am so glad I am not where I was. Actuallu I thank God I am not where I used to be.

Obviously March isn't my heaviest, but it represents PROGRESS! I may take baby steps but at least I am moving forward.  I am so scared for whats to come but so excited. I wish I knew exactly what will happen. Sometimes I just wait for the day my life falls into place. I wait for that moment my relationship status changes, my bank account has money in it to buy the things I need and to help out my family more.

I know that day will come. But I look back at my life and know in the past, those bad things happened to help me progress. I have a few family members who I look at and think, "I NEVER wanna be in their position." NEVER! I know it sounds mean but I am so thankful to have been dragged through hell a few years back to know what I will tolerate and what I wont and to grow into a woman I am proud of.

I understand that losing my baby, having to make decisions and walking away from the ex all lead me to a life I love. I am in the moment and I am forever grateful for my progress.

I'm not where I used to be.

I am grateful for that. 

So grateful.

Goodbye November, December, lets make the last month of this year really special!

(Fingers crossed)

2 comments:

Big Mark 243 said...

... one thing that HASN'T changed is that you still GOT BACK..!

Be proud of yourself for all you have brought yourself through and now you can re-imagine your present future in your own image... you have the power to shape your life as you so desire it to be...

864 said...

I have been meaning to leave you a comment. You are proof that slow and steady is the way to go. (I wish I could put in practice in my own weight struggle)You look great and keep up the good work.