This past week was full of such raw emotions. I started thinking about the feelings of losing my grandma and how much the wound still feels open. How much pain my pain is in. I am smiling, laughing but she's gone....Just not here to hug.
This past week I saw people for who they really are. Some are close to me and turned out to be selfish. Expecting me to be there for them yet here I am still trying to carry this sadness without cracking. People who I thought understood this pain turned out to be selfish. Beyond selfish.
Then theres some who I saw were just not good women. Women who are two-faced. Women who knocked other women down and thought, "Well I can because I am the leader..." It was so disgusting to see women who were about love and peace let other women tear down other women.
Maybe I am going through growing pains.
Maybe I see things differently.