The other day I cried to my mom.
"Why does thios bad stuff happen to me when I am a good person?"
A thought that has been plaguing me for sometime now.
In the most loving, genuine, sincere voice, she said, "Mijia, God gives you these obstacles to be able to help people."
The tension on my heart eased.
Someday, when I am old and gray, sitting on my porch watching my grandchildren play and my children sit with me, and my husband watering the lawn, I will truly know it was a test and lead me to a great life.
I am a good person. I dont hurt anyone, speak ill of anyone, and I do right by the law. Now by God, that's a whole different story but he loves me anyways and forgives me on a daily basis.
I know I constantly worry about money, love and just being at peace...It will all fall into place. I know it will.
I pray that I get this job. It's a wonderful job and I know I could grow in it. But I also know at the end of the day, God is gonna lead me on the path that is best for me.
I have to have faith.
I have to know that these trails and tribulations will make me a better person and be able to help people.
I truly believe I was put on this Earth to share my story, to hope that someone doesnt quit on themselves.
God will have my back as long as I believe in him.