I have lost a lot of weight...and yes I feel sexy, smart and beautiful.
But there will always be THAT Stefanie.
The Stefanie who is still 2oo-some ought pounds.
The Stefanie guys rejected because of her weight.
The Stefanie who was just an option.
The Stefanie who felt so bad about herself she dated men who treated her badly,
I sit here crying...I'm not sure why, Maybe I do know why. Maybe its because for once I am scared...Scared that I will NEVER be good enough for a man.
Some look at me and say, "Im confused how you are single?" Its mind boggling. I think Im hot. Sometimes I look at my body and think, "Dayummmmmm" Why wouldnt a guy want this? Id want it!
Rejection...such an ugly feeling. Especially when I havent been rejected YET lol.
I think not knowing we are on the same page is whats scaring me.
Every time I thought me and a guy was on the same page, turns out he was reading a whole other book.
And I think, a man would be so stupid to not be on it.
Id date me.
But I am so scared of rejection because for 11 years, a man who I shard my life with, told me what to do, gave the rules and rejected me all the time when he found something or someone better. Now that I am single...that rejection, that fear of it, hasn't went away.
I get when dating its suppose to be fun, but knowing someone is on the same page is always nice...ya feel me.
I just wanna be on the same page with someone who thinks, "If this woman is into me, I am one lucky man..."
I just want to be on the same page....
