Sometimes you need to breathe.....

 

I need to clear my head today loves! Yesterday I parted ways with a friend who blamed me for the person she is turning into....I was really shaken by such a statement when I have TONS of people surrounding me EVERY DAY!

This person also brought up that my past has made me bitter and not better and as I read the texts  to those around me, they looked puzzled. This woman doesnt KNOW me and honestly, we are all human and mess up. I never said I was a Saint...in fact NO ONE IS...But making BIG statements as such really shake my soul.

Granted, I did say things that weren't very nice...WE ALL DO...But to sit there and blame someone for the person you are becoming is honestly, pure BS. I lived with a Meth addict & not once did I turn into one. I lived with a horrible man who cheated lied and stole...and not once did I pick up those habits.  To blame others for your faults and mishaps is not taking responsibility.

I can now see why I only keep a handful of friends in my circle and I really need to start listening to my gut not when it comes to men, but friends and those who I surround myself.

So today I am having ME time! 

So you manana!

VLOG: In my TWO jeans...I mean THREE Jeans

WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEKLY WEIGH-IN: 2.4 pounds gained

 

Yes ladies and gentlemen, I gained. -Shrugs- What a girl to do...*Rolls eyes* I am NOT regretting this and no one better EVER make me feel bad for a gain. Life is about gains and losses. I'm not perfect....I don't feel the need to be perfect when it comes to MY journey. And I capitalize MY for a reason. We, those who are losing weight, in fact ALL of us, are on our own journey. What works for YOU, may not work for me. If I wanna waste my points on ice cream, snickers, or whatever it may be...SO WHAT! Seems like many have "something to say" when it comes to how I eat. What I use my points on, blah, blah, blah....I don't eat clean, probably wont EVER and honestly, I love eating the foods I love in portion. 

Cheers to my two pounds gained!

Cheers to not regretting it!

HIGH OF THE WEEK

Honestly, it was going out with my wolfpack when I was feeling ugly. Yes I feel ugly sometimes. They showed up unannounced and we went to the cheesecake factory. Totally cheered me up. Then on Sunday, the madre and I went hiking at sunset. The sun setting while hiking is amazing! Sometimes the HIGH isn't always weight related, its SOUL related.

LOW OF THE WEEK

I was feeling ugly ALL week. No lie. I saw the old Stefanie and honestly, I have no clue why. I felt horrible about myself and my self-esteem went down. I don't even know why! It was just a very self-image bad week for me. NO BUENO!

WHAT I LEARNED

I learned to not be so hard on myself. If I wanna go eat at The Cheesecake Factory, I AM!!! Its about living life and having fun while doing it!

TIP OF THE WEEK

 

I am NOT a breakfast eater. I decided to change that...We bout Sara Lee Mini-bagels (2pp per bagel)  and AYE! AYE! AYE! They are delicious! However, we also found these Kraft Philadelphia Cream Cheese PACKETS! 2 points each (I only used 1/2 though, 1 whole packet was way too much for my mini bagel) and I added strawberries (0 pp)

I AM NOW SO INTO BREAKFAST! 

Quick, easy and SOO delicious!!

QUOTE OF THE WEEK

Some people drain you and others provide soul food. Get in the company of those who feed your spirit. -Thema Davis

FOTD: Tealed

EYES:

Eyeshadow-  Maybelline Eye Sudio tattoo 24Hr Cream Gel eyeshadow "Too Cool"

&

Maybelline Eye Sudio tattoo 24Hr Cream Gel eyeshadow "Tenacious Teal" 

 

Eyeliner- Eye Studio Lasting Drama Gel Eyeliner

Mascara: Maybelline Volum' Express The Falsies  

 

CHEEKS:

It Cosmetics Vitality Glow Anti-Aging Matte Bronzer

 

LIPS:

L'Oreal - "Fairest Nude"

NYC- Liquid Lip Shine "Nude in the City:

REVIEW: Freeman Beauty Acai Facial Purifying Clay Mask

 

Another mask! I was in Walmart (as usual) and decided to pick up Freeman's Acai Facial Purifying Clay mask!

Shall we begin?

WHAT IS THIS MASK ?

According to the package: quick fix for dulling skin, powered by an 8-antioxidant blend of Acai, Goji, Mango, Mangosteen, Cranberry, Noni, and Blueberry to neutralize environmental damage. Super oil-absorbent clays draw impurities from skin and clean out clogged pores. Perfect for all skin types.

BEFORE

 

My skin was really oily and felt REALLY dirty...

LETS APPLY

This smelled so much like a Berry smoothie it was making me hungry! However, it did sting my eyes. I never had that happen to me, it was a first. But honestly, from all the facial masks I have reviewed, this usually meant its really working. I couldn't really tell obviously until I was done with the process.

Don't I look sexy? Just kidding!....or am I? lol

HARDEN AND WIPE OFF!

This mask took about 30 minutes to dry. A tad bit longer than most, however, this why you need to do a mask when you are RELAXING around the house or taking a nice long bath :) 

Getting the mask off was a tad bit harder and that is because it is CLAY! Clay is always thicker (duh Stef!)

AFTER

 

My face felt REALLY try after. I'm talking about it was TOO dry and I had to put moisturizer on right away. Also the stinging in my eyes did not go away for sometime. Although it does what it says, I dont think Ill b using this mask again...

OVERALL RATING:

3 out fo 5 stars

WHERE: Walmart

Price: 1.99

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NAILS OF THE WEEK: Candy-Coated Dreams

 

OPI (Pink) : Sparrow me the drama (Pirates of Caribbean collection)

OPI (Teal) : Fly (Nicki Minaj collection)

SATURDAY'S WITH STEF: A week of weakness

 

Some look at me and think I have it all when it comes to my weightloss journey.

Some look at me and see this gorgeous woman who seems so mighty like a lion yet gentle as a blue bird.

Im beautiful.

Dont think I am saying I am not. Because I am.

But I have my moments and this week was one.

Looking at myself in the mirror was hard and every outfit felt as if my fat was spilling out of it. I walked passed a coworker I work with and the look he had on his face was unlike something I had never seen before. In my head, it was a look of disgust, others saw a look of lust. When I relaid the message to my wolfpack, they were mind boggled. 

So was I.

My self-perception has been SO off this week.

Im having a week of weakness. As my body changes I am adjusting to it MENTALLY. I call this the "Fat girl complex" I have spoke about this...

I am beautiful...

Im just having a bad "mental" week.