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Saturday's with Stef: And I wait.......

 

They say good things come to those who wait. Others will argue and say good things come to those who get up off their butt and work for it.

Ive worked hard to get where I am. I have endured many "beatings" and have walked through hell. I survived. Times I lost my life vest, I kept swimming. And when my little legs were tired, I kept them moving to stay afloat. I truly believe anything good that comes my way is because I deserve it.

I know in time my love life will fall into place and I will find a good man who makes me realzie whey it never worked out with anyone else. I have to have faith that he will accidentaly walk into my life and purposely stay. Someone who will keep this time and not throw me back because he found a girl whos prettier, thinner and better than me in every way. I have to believe he is out there in a world full of douchebags.

Someone who chooses me.

I think with summer here, the couples are out and the summer nights make me feel even more alone. No one to hold hands with, kiss, and hug anytime I want to. Someone who I can say, with sureness, loves me for me. Who will fight for me, with me, and wont ever leave my corner of the ring. Ride or die. 

As much as I love myself, I am bursting at the seams to love and be loved back. But I know, this time, God is gonna be picky. He's gonna bring me a good man. A man who doesnt care about the number on the scale. A man who doesnt care about my naked face. A man who is just so wonderful.

And I wait.

Patiently.

Theres nothing I can do but continue to love myself, work on myself and let the chips fall where they may.

Life is good right now.

But patiently I wait....

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Saturday's With Stef: My Stripes

 

I am very aware of what I am posting...in fact, I sat on this for two whole weeks before I FINALLY said, "Do it Stef!"

These are my stripes

My stretch marks.

I never had them this bad until I lost weight. I never even knew they existed until I lost weight, but now, they are apart of who I am. This is what parts of my stomach looks like. Proud?  50/50...These stretch marks tell my story. A story of sadness. A story of finding happiness. A story of finding SELF-LOVE. 

So many women look at me and think I  have this GREAT body under my clothes. I don't. In fact, far from it. Heres me with clothes on...

No stripes! 

But this isnt about revealing myself.

Its letting women know that no body is a perfect body.

When I look at the first photo, I am reminded that I have come a LONG way and I will never, nor even strive to be, an Adriana Lima.  I am Stefanie. These are my stripes. These stripes symbolize my struggle. One I am working on STILL. Yes, I am VERY aware that the first picture isnt appealing to the opposite sex.

I am fully aware of that. I mean, let me be honest, being intimate with a man is on my "FREAK OUT" list. Let a man SEE my stripes? NERVE-WRECKING. But I read a Kat William quote and it made me giggle,

"We don't have no time to worry bout no sh** like stretch marks... They came from either 1 of 2 things... Either you was big & got small, or you were small & got big ! Either way we f***ing... Either Waaay!" 

I asked a few male friends about this and they agreed. I think as confident as I am, the stretch marks will always be a reminder to me that I am not perfect and no matter how much weight I lose, I still have my stripes. If a man digs my stripes, more power to him for actually looking past my beautiful flaw ( & we all know men get stretch marks too!)

This is me. Stretch marks and all. I love myself enough to say, "Take it or leave it" These stripes, these badges of being a woman, has molded me into who I am. I cannot change this. My stripes are HERE to stay no matter what I do to "lessen them"

So I say this to you....LOVE EVERY INCH OF YOURSELF.

There's no greater joy and feeling from LOVING YOURSELF.

You may have bad days, heaven knows I do, but love yourself and accept your flaws. Embrace em!

HERE'S TO STRIPES!

HERE'S TO FLAWS!

HERES TO SELF-LOVE

HERE'S TO BEAUTY IN ALL SHAPES AND SIZES!

Stretch marks and all....